Confused
It’s still hard, but I’m feeling a bit better. I’ve realized that maybe he isn’t the right person for me, even though I love him more than anything. I wish he could love me the right way. Now strange things have started happening. I live in a student dorm because I’m at university, and there’s also someone living here who I used to have feelings for before my ex. I ran into him recently, and I’ve started dreaming about him. It’s been two nights in a row now, even though I don’t feel anything for him and we were never together.
I’m so damn confused.
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do you think maybe seeing that person again stirred up something familiar or comforting? like, not about him, but the version of you from before all the heartbreak?
It’s true, before my relationship with my ex, I was such a relaxed and carefree person, and then all the problems started and I changed.
dreams can be your brain’s way of untangling stuff you haven’t fully processed. it doesn’t mean you want that person back or that it means something. try not to read too deep into it. usually when i’m confused like that, i just write it out before bed. helps my mind chill a bit.
when i was trying to move on from my ex, my brain started pulling out random memories of people i used to like. it was like my mind was searching for safety in old crushes because i was craving that feeling of being wanted again. it’s so weird how grief messes with who shows up in your dreams. you’re not crazy just healing in a very human way.
It’s funny because during all 10 months that I was with my ex, I never once thought about that person and now, all of a sudden, after I ran into him, I’ve started dreaming about him.