I'm going crazy, right?
Half of me is happy with the break up, I don't mean the break up itself because I really love him with all my heart and would love him again and again but I think it kinda helped me, indirectly.
I passed an exam to a school next to the biggest city of the country, and this school is the better of my field in the whole country. Going fo live in the biggest city for a while and I'm feeling really positive, even knowing we can meet there because we are of the same work field (yeah, distance relationship). Going to know so many people and have many academic opportunities.
Maybe, we can solve this break up as I'm going to the same area but I'm grateful for all these things, not I wanted but what I needed to grow up.
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you think about possibly meeting again there, does it feel grounding or does it pull you back into hope that hurts a little
It does bring me hope but not in a painful way, you know. I'm going with a mindset that the distance thing now is gone and we're next of each other, it can work but does not mean it will work.
i felt that split feeling too, loving them deeply but also realizing the breakup unlocked parts of me i’d been shrinking. i didn’t ask for it, but it pushed me to grow in ways i wasn’t brave enough to choose.
Yeah! We have to look to the bright side of the situation. I don't wanted this but I know that it was necessary to be brave about moving and applying to a better place.