In six months, it will be two years since I confessed my feelings to the girl I've had a crush on since I was 16. I’m turning 30 in a couple of weeks, and I can’t help but reflect on it all. We first met 13 or 14 years ago in high school, and for two years in college, we were inseparable—best friends who did everything together. But then I started to develop feelings, and things slowly drifted apart. That was about 7-10 years ago. The last time I saw her or had a real conversation was back in 2016, nearly seven years ago. We kept in touch through social media, but I lost contact completely when I entered a four-year relationship in 2017.
In April 2022, I reached out to her on Instagram and told her that for the past 9-10 years, she was the one I truly wanted. It didn’t go well.
I wish she could feel the long-standing, slow-burning desire I’ve carried for her all these years. I've spent my life seeing her with other people, always wishing it could have been me.
As I get older, I’m beginning to understand the reality of "never" and "not meant to be." Time keeps passing, life goes on, but nothing ever brings us together. I could live another 50 years, experiencing so much, but "us" will never be part of it. I’ve wanted her since I was 15, and I’m almost 29 now. If nothing has happened by now, it probably never will.
I imagine an art exhibit—a simple one. There’s a big room with two rocks on opposite sides. Those rocks will never touch unless something moves them. That’s us: two rocks that will always remain apart. There's nothing in the universe that will bring us closer, and that’s just the way life is.
And that’s okay.
Last updated on:2024-10-28T13:27:29+05:30
Comments (14)
What if you had confessed earlier? Would things have been different?
A love unrequited, a heart forever yearning. A beautiful tragedy.
Use this experience to grow as a person. You'll come out stronger on the other side
I can't imagine how painful it must be. Stay strong.
Well, at least you tried. Maybe the universe is just playing a cruel joke on you.
Maybe it's time to focus on other aspects of your life. Travel, hobbies, career—these can bring you joy.
Life is full of unexpected twists and turns. Sometimes, the things we want the most are the things we can't have.
I wonder if she ever felt the same way. It's a tough situation.
Every ending is a new beginning. Embrace the future and all the possibilities it holds.
Maybe one day, fate will intervene. Until then, cherish the memories and focus on the future.
Sometimes, the universe has other plans. It's hard to accept, but it's important to move forward.
Time to let go and move on. You'll find someone who loves you back. Focus on your own happiness.
It's a painful feeling. Just remember, there's someone out there who will appreciate you for who you are.
It's tough to hold onto feelings for so long. Time heals all wounds, though.