I lost my boyfriend to fentanyl exposure three month ago, and I’ve felt completely overwhelmed since. I feel like I've cycled through every stage of grief over and over. I went to his visitation, saw the guestbook, the huge pictures of him, but there’s still a part of me that can’t accept it. Even now, every time I see a car like his, I get closer to check if it could possibly be him. I just miss him so deeply. I’ll never get the chance to understand what was going through his mind that day, never have the opportunity to make things right. All the plans we had—even the ones he didn’t know I cared about—are just empty dreams now, and it keeps gnawing at me.
I’ve driven past the house where he passed. I’ve thought about going to see his parents. But I’m just so lost without him. Is there something wrong with me?
Last updated on:2024-11-05T13:44:54+05:30
Comments (5)
It's incredibly painful to lose someone you love, especially in such a sudden and tragic way. You're not alone in your grief. Please reach out to friends, family, or a therapist for support.
Your feelings are valid and understandable. Grieving is a unique journey for everyone. It's okay to feel lost and confused.
It's completely normal to feel a range of emotions and to cycle through them. Please be gentle with yourself. You're not alone in this. Sending love and strength your way.
I’m really sorry about you loosing him.
Hello... I’ve been widowed twice myself. You’re expecting far too much of yourself too soon. Recovery will take several months, but you will heal. Just give it time.