It’s been 3 years, and I still miss her just as much as the day she left

It’s been 3 years, and I still miss her just as much as the day she left. We ended up moving to different states—she’s moved on to a new relationship since, and I’ve had a few talking stages, but I haven’t met anyone who makes me feel the way she did. I don’t know if I’m unintentionally holding back or if I’m just not interested.
We crossed paths again in May when we were both single and randomly visiting our hometown. We went out, caught up, kissed, and admitted that we still have feelings for each other and miss each other. But we both agreed it wouldn’t work because of the distance. For those three days, though, it was amazing—we went out every night. Afterward, we texted for a bit, but her replies became slower and less engaging, so I stopped reaching out.
Last week, I asked her to go with me to the Marine Corps ball. She initially said no because she had surgery coming up. But then a few days later, she texted, “Have you asked anyone else? I’d love to go—don’t think I wasn’t interested! I’m just waiting for my surgery date to confirm.” Eventually, she couldn’t make it and told me she wasn’t in a position to plan trips right now. She reassured me, saying, “This has nothing to do with not wanting to see you or anything about you. I value you and the friendship we have. I’m dealing with a lot and don’t want you to get caught in the middle of it. I hope you understand. I love and miss you always.”
Since then, I’ve been so down. I had my hopes so high, thinking this was finally our chance to reconnect and try again. Now, I’m stuck in this constant internal debate—should I let her go and move on, or wait because maybe she’ll come back, and this could be how we’re meant to reunite stronger than before? It’s been years, and I still can’t move on.

Last updated on:2024-11-19T16:48:54+05:30