It’s my birthday today

It’s my birthday today. I kinda hoped I’d hear from you, but it hasn’t happened yet, and honestly I don’t think it will. The past two years we spent my birthday together, and I’ve been thinking about that a lot today. This year’s birthday feels so different. I worked came home, and spent the night by myself. Last year we were out havin fun—hotel vibes, museums, food, bars with your friends, and even a hockey game later. I miss your friends... and I really miss you. I thought we’d spend my birthday together again this year, but life had other plans.
My life’s completely different now than it was a year ago. Writing this while crying, but I’m trying to remind myself it’s okay to grieve our relationship and what I lost. I know birthdays without you will get easier as time goes on, but right now it hurts. We’re also coming up on the anniversary of when you broke up with me for the last time, so I’m feelin that too. There’s still this tiny part of me that hopes you’ll reach out before the day’s over. If you see this I hope you do—it’d honestly make my birthday.
Also tell your mom happy birthday from me tomorrow. I always thought it was kinda sweet how close our birthdays are. I’m sad I can’t get her a card or anything but I really hope she has the best day and I hope you celebrate her too.
If you ever want to talk I’m still here. Everything is still open to you. I still love you ?

Last updated on:2024-11-25T13:49:04+05:30