I’m 6 months into no contact and honestly I’m proud of myself for making it this far. It’s been crazy tough. My situation hasn’t really improved though. I still think about her every day and miss her a lot.
She just pops into my head even when I’m not trying to think about her. Plus so many things remind me of her and what we had—especially music. We shared so many songs and hearing them now just makes everything harder.
Snapchat hit me with a memory from this time last year. It was a pic of me next to her butt while she was asleep. I had my head on it like a pillow and I showed her the pics the next day. She thought they were hilarious and adorable. She had a big butt and she knew I was obsessed with it.
This isn’t me trying to sound weird or anything—it’s just how much I appreciated her. I was genuinely in awe of how beautiful she was and moments like that made me feel so lucky to be close to her. That kind of intimacy just being with her like that meant the world to me. I’ve never felt more in love with anyone and I miss it so much.
Last updated on:2024-11-29T15:51:19+05:30
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Yes. He will always be a part of my soul.
For sure my first boyfriend from my early 19s definitely left a mark on me. But it’s not like the cute kind of memory—it’s more like his toxic vibes totally messed up my head and wrecked every relationship I’ve tried to have with a guy since.
Yeah, it’s like they’re this vibe that still lives in me.
It’s kinda terrifying, like they’re gone and I’m drowning in missing them, even after a whole year, but it’s also sorta beautiful? Like they’ll always be with me in some wayeven if it’s just this echo They really changed me and I’ll never be the same.
It’s been almost year since NC. I got over losing the relationship pretty quick but I’ve never really gotten over the fact I never got true closure or got to say what I needed to. The whole thing with her cheating and her life getting better while mine went to crap for a while made it harder to let go too. And don’t even get me started on the terrible hookups and dating scene, it has me looking back sometimes cause dating is honestly a mess right now. It’s weird tho. I’m still hurt by what she did and how she never took responsibility for it. I don’t want her back and I don’t feel anything romantic toward her like I’m totally neutral. I don’t wish anything bad for her but I just can’t seem to shake her from my mind.
There's always this vibe or energy around him like a quiet current you can feel.
It takes time, some people leave a mark
Yeah I feel that. Some people just stick with you you know?
It's been like 1 year now we bump into each other every now and then and even though I know it could never happen and honestly shouldn't I still can't shake that what if feeling.
Yeah I feel that too. I miss him every single day. It's been a whole year. Music's hard tho! I get it it's a dopamine thing like we’re just coming off the addiction to that person and how they made us feel about ourselves. I loved who he thought I was. Stay strong
can you DM me?
Yeah no matter how many years it's been no matter how many times she’s left me on read or how many guys she’s been with since my mind still clings to that night we walked along the beach. She was telling me how interesting she thought I was and we had those cute awkward silences while we got to know each other. Then she kissed me on both cheeks when I dropped her off... Those moments are stuck in my head they don’t fade. They play in my mind every day, just as strong as they were back then. Even if she’s completely forgotten about me those moments are still with me.
Ugh why are we like this?
@EnzoMOBB idk i guess it’s cuz we love hard and we really gave our hearts to the people we care about. that’s why it’s so hard to just let go. i’m trying my best to keep moving forward every day but i miss my girl so much. i just wish i could show everyone how happy she made me and how much she meant to me.