I’m so over starting over. Feels like my life’s been a revolving door of people coming and going.
Just went through a breakup and no I don’t want them back. I’m back on dating apps, but honestly it’s sucking the life out of me. Everywhere I go everything I do it’s like a highlight reel of my past. It’s exhausting. I don’t think I can keep opening up to someone letting them see the real me only to have them bounce. From being so close to strangers—it’s brutal. And yeah, I’m getting older. Like a lot of guys I’m into younger women but dating people who are still figuring themselves out? Drains me. Feels like I’m just a pit stop for people to mess up again and then leave.
I’ve lived in the same city forever, and the thought of going to this big annual event here with someone new—again—makes me physically sick ?. Too many memories of past people I’ve gone with. It's like emotional whiplash. I even walked past some music playing in a parking lot the other day and it hit me so hard I almost threw up.
My living parent’s been alone for like a decade, and I’m scared that’s gonna be me. Not because I can’t find someone but because my past feels like it’s drained me dry. The nostalgia—whether it’s about family friends or places—it’s so heavy and I don’t know how to let it go. I’ve always felt everything too deeply.
I’ve got nothing left to give right now. Can’t fake optimism for someone new. Messaging back on dating apps feels impossible. I’m just not about to be someone’s stepping stone again for their emotional chaos.
Last updated on:2024-12-02T15:09:15+05:30
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I can’t even explain how much this hits different for me. I’m always starting over whether it’s with friends or relationships. It honestly feels draining. For me I get close to someone, then when things go south I feel dumb for letting them in. It really takes a toll. No matter how careful I try to be I end up the one getting hurt. It feels like a never-ending cycle. Most people don’t even know what they want. I’m scared I’ll end up alone, but honestly some days it feels like that’s better than getting hurt over and over. I’m so tired of always being the one who keeps it together while people just use you. But no matter what all we can do is keep moving forward and focus on the future we’re building for ourselves. Self-care is a big thing for me. If I don’t take care of myself no one else will. Hang in there you’re definitely not alone 💜
Aww thanks! What you said just reminded me of something someone told me once. Sometimes we tie our worth to others but it’s like renting it from them (especially in relationships) it’s not forever. When the lease is up we’re left feeling like we didn't really own any of it, so we’re back to square one. Taking care of yourself is like owning your own house you know your investment’s gonna pay off. Become what you admire in others. :) Appreciate you sharing, ❤️ to you!
I feel like I can’t keep friends no matter what I do like I’m always alone. I’m so over everyone leaving dying or ghosting me – no matter how hard I try they always dip. Maybe it’s time to just be you even if it’s alone for a bit to find yourself again. I needed that too, but my heart still screams his name so loud.
It hits like that Johnny Cash song "Hurt" honestly had a breakdown listening to it the other day. I wanna give to others without expecting anything back but to do that I gotta feel good again first.
@DSorrowB I'm so over the pain whether it's mine or others I'm just tired of people and being alone—it’s harder than it should be, and the dark vibes are too much. But hey I made this mess so I gotta deal with it.
This really hit me right in the feels. I feel the same way. I'll be 40 next year still single again and my last 4 relationships were toxic.
Since I was 20 all I wanted was to find someone get married and have kids.
Now I just feel like something’s wrong with me. I'm super kind and givin but I always end up getting used and hurt. People just wanna hook up or send random dick pics. I try dating apps but within a day I'm over it. I make it crystal clear I'm not about hookups but still they message me.
I just don't get this whole hookup culture.