So I walked away from a friendship recently that I really wanted to turn into more. I always felt like we had insane chemistry, like soulmate-level vibes. I knew my feelings were way stronger than hers, but I kept thinking there was something there.
Back in summer we went on a few dates. She was going through a lot—family drama, new job, new apartment, all that. I tried to be patient and understanding, but she wasn’t super responsive over text. And on those dates, it felt like most of the convo was her venting about her stuff. I kept my disappointment to myself, but looking back, maybe I gave off vibes that I wasn’t happy with how things were going. Anyway she ended up saying she just wanted to be friends and it wasn’t me, it was her. She also mentioned she might be aromantic. I told her I appreciated her being real with me, and if she was still figuring herself out that was okay. I said we could stay friends and I wouldn’t push for more.
Fast forward six months, and we’re hanging out talking, pet-sitting for each other. I even helped her move apartments (twice). But all my feelings just kept growing and I swear our chemistry was unreal. It got to a point where I felt like I had to know where we stood because it was eating me up. Our in-person vibes were great, but she barely texted first and was slow to reply. I couldn’t take it anymore so I decided to send a text to put it all out there.
I said:My feelings for you are too strong. I thought I could just be friends, but I can’t. For my own happiness, I have to walk away. I hope you understand. I wish you the best.
She never replied. Not gonna lie I wasn’t shocked but it still hurt.
There are so many things I wanna ask her: If things weren’t so crazy in your life, do you think we’d have worked out? How do you actually feel about me? Was there something I could’ve done differently? Was I asking too much with the texting? Why wasn’t I enough? And on and on.
Some days I’m okay and some days I can barely function. My depression’s been heavy—some mornings I can’t even get out of bed. And my relationship with food is trash. I’m eating way too much because it’s one of the few things that makes me feel better, but now I’m gaining weight and that’s messing with me too.
How do I find closure and actually move on? What can I do to feel better about myself and my life right now?
Last updated on:2024-12-02T14:05:48+05:30
Comments (5)
Don't compare yourself to others.
Focus on your own journey.
Find healthy coping mechanisms.
Explore hobbies, exercise, or meditation.
Practice self-compassion.
Be kind to yourself during this difficult time.
It's okay to feel hurt.
Don't suppress your emotions. Allow yourself to feel them.
You're not alone. It's tough to go through a breakup, especially one that was so hopeful.