so i was seeing this guy for like a year he was going through it during that time but our vibe was good we were exclusive but not bf gf official cuz he said he couldn’t give me what he wanted to like going out dinners etc i thought i’d stick it out and sup

so i was seeing this guy for like a year he was going through it during that time but our vibe was good we were exclusive but not bf gf official cuz he said he couldn’t give me what he wanted to like going out dinners etc i thought i’d stick it out and support him hoping he’d come out of that dark place eventualy

recently we didn’t see each other for a bit holidays and family stuff on his end i didn’t overthink it since we was still talking daily on the phone he became someone i really loved like my best friend the person i wanted to share my life with

then my friend texted me saying he made multiple dating app profiles it broke me we’ve always been so honest with each other and he promised he’d tell me if things weren’t working part of me wishes he just ended it before going on apps seeing that hit me so hard i trusted him so much and now i’m stuck like why wasn’t i enough why didn’t he respect me enough to let me go first how is it ok for him to talk to or date someone else it’s been so triggering i can’t sleep my anxiety’s through the roof my chest hurts i didn’t eat for two days and now i’m just using edibles to get food down

what’s crazy is i’ve been in longer relationships and i didn’t even feel this bad after those i don’t get it i just feel like i’m never good enough with him i really thought he’d be different but he’s not and now i don’t know how to move on

any tips for handling the anxiety and physical stuff i know the sadness will linger but the racing heart tingly hands sleepless nights it’s too much any advice?

Last updated on:2024-12-16T13:43:25+05:30