It’s been 5 months and I’ve been trying to pull my life together without depending on something toxic to cope. But it’s getting hard. I’ve been working out and yeah my fam and friends say I look better healthier, even happier. But I’m not. I just don’t want them stressing over me. Still can’t face myself in the mirror. I cry before work after work and late at night when everyone’s asleep.
Lately I’ve been scared. Not cause he left but cause of the things he said when he did. I’ve thought about ending it but I can’t. My family doesn’t deserve that pain. It’s just getting harder to keep going.
I feel weak like I’ve never been this low before. I don’t even know what to do anymore.
Last updated on:2024-12-16T15:57:55+05:30
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Just remember you’re loved by so many people who are rooting for you and want the best for you.
Breakups suck I won’t lie (been there, like, super recently). But you’re doing all the right things and all this effort will pay off. If you’re still feeling stuck maybe try switching it up—do something new maybe even for someone else (volunteering, joining a club, whatever vibes). Trust me someday something or someone will come along and fill that space they left.
Stay strong, and if you ever need to vent we’re here for you.
I feel you. It’s tough and I’m out here trying to keep my routine too, but the pain just hits hard. You’re doing your best by pushing through and trying to live as normal as you can. Trust me I cry too a lot. The pain comes at me like a punch to the heart and mind keeps me up at night. The silence feels way too loud.
But listen no one and I mean no one is worth hurting yourself over. Life’s a lot sometimes like when everything hits at once but you’ll get through this. If you’re hitting the gym keep at it. Don’t fall into the trap of drugs or alcohol seriously just don’t. Stick with working out try meditating or do some breathing exercises.
You gotta work through the pain I know it’s tough but you got this.
Thanks for the kind words. I know it’s not worth it but I just feel like I’m not even me anymore like a shell. Had my work review and my boss said I bring all this positive energy to the office but after work I broke down 'cause I knew I was just pretending. I'm hurt and it won’t go away. I let someone treat me like nothing and they don’t care. years and I’m just a ghost to him.
I’m still hurt still miss him. I’ve been through heartbreak before but this one hit different and I’m scared I won’t be able to put myself back together.
@Rosnna01 I’m in a job where people come to me with their problems but lately I’ve been struggling to keep up. People started noticing how I looked and acted differently. Someone said I looked pale almost yellow. A lot of people pointed out how my voice wasn’t the same either. At work I’d go to the bathroom to let my emotions out or do it in the car when I was driving alone. If I was with a close friend or on the phone, I’d just start crying. It wasn’t just the breakupit was how it happened and how everything else in my life was falling apart too.
I know most advice on here sounds cliché, but honestly, it’s true. Life is short and we’re only given one. When you look back at things that once hurt so bad you realize you made it through and you're still here. So just try to keep busy and distract yourself.