I (17F) met this guy (19M) online a few months back and it started out super chill just for fun but it ended up being one of the most confusing and painful things I’ve ever gone through

I (17F) met this guy (19M) online a few months back and it started out super chill just for fun but it ended up being one of the most confusing and painful things I’ve ever gone through. Looking back I see now how much of myself I gave to someone who didn’t really value me like that.
We vibed instantly. He was funny he made me feel seen and for a while I really thought he cared about me. Things moved fast—like way fast. We went from flirty convos to deep emotional stuff real quick. I fell for him hard. He was my first love. He had this whole charming-but-broken thing going on that I thought was perfect but honestly there were red flags from the start and I just... ignored them.
For one he was still not over his ex. he straightup told me he wasn’t but I thought we could just be friends. Except his actions? They were all over the place. We kept crossing lines blurring boundaries and it became this cycle of being close one second and distant the next. Any time I tried to get emotionally closer he’d pull away and hide behind his whole I’m not over my ex excuse.
And to make things messier there was another girl (16F) in the picture. Turns out they had their own situationship going on. It felt like I was constantly competing for his attention but no matter what I did it was never enough. What stung the most was seeing him give her the care and energy I wanted so bad from him.
I tried to just be friends with him but even that was a mess. He’d ghost me say he didn’t hate me then dip again. It was like I was only there as a backup when he felt lonely. One day he straight-up removed me from his social media no goodbye, no explanation, just gone.
The worst part? I cared about him. deeply. Even when I knew I couldn’t have him romantically I still wanted to be there for him as a friend. But he didn’t want that. He treated me like I was nothing, and it broke me.
She told me You’ll find someone better but let’s be real—it just feels like she said that because she knows she’s the one he’s staying connected with. I can’t shake this feeling that I was disposable like I was the one he didn’t mind losing.
This whole thing left me feeling so empty like I’m questioning everything about myself. Was I not enough? Did I care too much? Was it stupid to fall for someone who was so unavailable?
But if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s this—you can’t force someone to love you or even value you as a friend. It hurts like hell but I deserve better. I deserve someone who sees my worth and treats me with the same energy I’m willing to give.To anyone else stuck in a cycle like this know your worth. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you’re just an option. Love is supposed to build you up not tear you apart.

Last updated on:2024-12-16T15:57:52+05:30