So I’m lowkey stuck on my ex who was basically my first love. We broke up almost two months ago after dating for about the same amount of time. Our relationship was kinda messy and we ended on bad terms. For a while I thought I’d moved on—I even got into a new relationship but I’d still catch myself thinking about them a lot. Back then it wasn’t even about wanting to date them again I mostly missed the friendship we had.
Over the past two months I’ve tried reaching out a few times just to be friends but it always ends the same way. Either they talk to me for a couple days and then block me out of nowhere or they hit me with a deep message about why we shouldn’t talk for both our sakes then block me after. That should’ve been enough closure but for some reason I just can’t let it go. It’s giving desperate and I hate that for me.
Now they’ve got a new partner and it straight-up hurts. They’re living the kind of relationship I wanted with them. We were long distance and they’re not which just makes it sting more. Like me and my ex never even met in person because of life stuff and our age back then so you’d think it’d be easier to move on—but nope I still feel so much for them.
The last time we talked they said we shouldn’t speak right now but let’s be real that probably means never. And honestly I know it’s for the best. I can’t keep popping back into their life and messing up my own healing. But even knowing that I miss them so much and I don’t know how to deal with the pain of never talking to them again. I just want to stop feeling like this but it’s not getting any easier.
Sorry if this is all over the place it’s just really hard to explain.
Last updated on:2024-12-17T14:57:37+05:30
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Let go of control. Trust that the universe has a plan.
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