I’m 24F and I got broken up with by someone I’m completely in love with. this is way deeper than anything I’ve ever felt before. It happened at the start of November.
I’ve been through breakups before and yeah they always hurt probably 'cause of my anxious attachment but nothing like this. I’ve always been able to bounce back—until now. This is the first time in my life I’ve actually started therapy.
What I’m feeling now is beyond heartbreak. I look back at times I thought I was depressed and literally laugh at how small those moments feel compared to this. I’ve never been someone who struggles with depression I’ve always been mentally strong.
But for two months now nothing has changed. I feel so dull so stuck. It’s like this mental claustrophobia I can’t shake. I’ll be sitting on my bed in the shower or looking at myself in the mirror just sobbing. I’m terrified I’m gonna feel this way forever—dull blocked empty. The breakup is one thing but losing my sense of life and joy completely? That’s a whole other level.
I feel like the version of me before all this just...died. All the positivity I used to have like things get better for everyone is gone. Now I feel like those are just coping mechanisms people tell themselves. The way I see life now honestly scares me.
It feels like I’ve hit a wall and everything I used to believe in just doesn’t feel real anymore. Like life doesn’t guarantee happiness and wanting something doesn’t mean it exists. I’m stuck and I have no idea what to do next.
How’s that feel?
Last updated on:2025-01-23T13:43:38+05:30
Comments (6)
Try to be gentle with yourself. Healing takes time.
This sounds like a really difficult time. Don't be afraid to reach out for support.
Therapy is a great step. It takes time and courage to heal.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It sounds incredibly tough.
This is so relatable. Breakups can be brutal especially when you're so deeply in love
that sounds awful. Sending you so much love.