I’m still in it. I’m not over it

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I’m still in it. I’m not over it.
There hasn’t been a single day I’ve felt okay since it happened.
Some moments I fake a smile, but deep down it still hurts bad.

I’m not here to blame anyone. Not here to play victim either. I’m just trying to speak the truth — cause keeping it in is killing me.

There was someone I really cared about. Deeply.
I gave everything I had — even when I was falling apart.
And yeah, I still care. That’s what makes it harder.

She’s dealing with stuff I can’t fully understand.
And maybe she didn’t have room left for this, or for me.
I’m not angry. I just wish I didn’t feel like I’m the one left with all the weight.

I know I wasn’t perfect either.
I told my sister things cause I had no one else to turn to.
I didn’t want drama — I was just overwhelmed.

And now? I’m still here. Still trying.
I cry, I shake, I overthink — but I’m not giving up on myself.

This isn’t closure. Not yet.
But it’s a step. A breath. A moment of honesty.

Last updated on:2025-07-11T10:25:03+05:30

Comments (8)

vichii213
vichii213 8 mths ago

You’re doing the best you can and that’s enough. It’s okay to not have closure yet it’ll come when you’re ready

icee23
icee23 8 mths ago

This is so relatable. You’re not alone in feeling this way and it’s inspiring to see you still trying and not giving up.

Sovikova
Sovikova 8 mths ago

You’re allowed to feel everything you’re feeling. It’s not easy but you’re showing so much strength by not giving up on yourself.

LonelyME
LonelyME 8 mths ago

This hit deep. You’re allowed to feel everything you’re feeling and it’s brave of you to share it.

imging
imging 8 mths ago

It’s okay to still care and feel the weight of it all. You’re not alone in this and you’re doing amazing by not giving up on yourself.

PancakeSmash
PancakeSmash 8 mths ago

u need to wake up and take every step that is necessary for you to heal, someone out there deserve the healed version of u... no not her, U ARE STRONG. no one can make u collapse but you. so u need to be strong and grow

CactusPolo
CactusPolo 8 mths ago

You’re showing so much strength by sharing this. It’s not easy but being honest with yourself is a huge step forward.

dietie
dietie 8 mths ago

This is so raw and honest. It’s okay to feel this way healing takes time and you’re doing your best.