detaching before the relathionship is even over, but it's dead anyway

we were long distance for over a year met each other irl plenty of times, last in september. today, after an ugly night pf arguing and me pointing out his selfish behavior, i asked him for a call before he went on a trip. non negotiable. it went as expected. he "agreed" to do respect and communication otherwise we are not continuing. he was annoyed, like i was pestering him. he didnt even tell me he loved me back. i said it twice. he said he doesnt feel loving or loved and he wont say it. he wanted his own time before he had to go and cut the conversation short. i had a meeting to go to anyway. not long after i saw him updating his bios and profile pictures on instagram and facebook. he got a new bike on friday and had to share it to get validation and maintain his social image. not once did he reach out before his flight, he just keep being online on other apps. i decided i wont text first and im done begging. i wont check his socials and this week will be detaching from this toxicity. every day i will throw out something of his, remove him off something and reward myself for it. i will create new habits and try to find myself again. i turned on the "no contact" streak from checking his socials. i dont want to see him replacing me by shallow validation to stroke his ego. i want to cry a lot, but i will force myself to see my friends, family and go to the gym. i know what i had to offer was valuable, and he as a narcissist abused it and used me.

Last updated on:2025-10-15T00:40:04+05:30