sometimes the night is where I truly miss him. I know hes not coming back, complete NC, hes blocked me on everything gone ghost. I keep making up scenarios where he comes back and I'm trying to distract my brain from doing so. struggling to move on and feel genuine romance with anyone else. I keep thinking what else I could of done. the things he said to me keep replaying in my head "I thought I could love you in the end but it was just lust" everything felt like a lie. I dont know what to do with myself I keep counting the days waiting to get better and there's small improvement but ultimately I'm still breaking down randomly I'm still feeling love for him, I feel completely numb to everyone else. I want to be over him I want the pain to stop its eating me alive. I wish you could just remove yourself from the feelings, move on like they did. I feel myself withdrawing from everyone, I have a hole in my chest and I feel like its never going to go away. I want it to stop so badly.
Last updated on:2025-11-10T08:13:08+05:30
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100 days and still I give you space in my head.You treated me terribly and took me for total granted,lied,cheated and stole from me.I have never been treated worse bye a woman in my life and still I give you space you never deserved. For you to do that and for me to do this is slapping me twice in the face.
That feeling when you are alone is torture. Believe me, it will pass. Time heals.
I completely relate to this. Im going through the exact same thing and I don't know how to cope. I feel like I'm drowning all while he's living his best life with the girl he used to compare me to and cause me anxiety. I keep replaying his words about her in my mind and I don't know what to do
when those random breakdowns hit, do you let yourself cry it out or do you try to distract yourself?
you gotta let yourself feel it, I just cry
I’ve been listening to meditations on YouTube to calm my mind at nights. I know what you’re feeling.
me was stopping the countdown like, not waiting for the day i’d feel “over it.” i just focused on making each day a little more mine again. it doesn’t fix the ache, but it softens it.
I feel like crying just reading this
my ex said something similar that it was never love, just “comfort.” those words haunt you in a loop, especially at night when everything goes quiet. i used to make fake scenarios in my head too, just to fall asleep. it’s the brain’s way of reaching for what used to feel safe. i promise the hole starts to close slowly, even if it feels impossible right now.