it's been 172 days no contact. today would have been out anniversary if he hadn't broke up with me. it wasn't always easy but i felt like i was moving on. i even starting to concider i catched some feelings for someone new ( didn't do anything with it because i knew I wasn't ready and wanted to heal first) but today i feel like i jumped back to the beggening. i think about him a lot. i know that i haven't let go yet. i have this feeling of bitterness and loneliness inside of me. I'm not sure if i miss him or what we had or how i felt but I'm not feeling good. when will it pass. what can i do to finally forget about him. i just want to let go but how can i do it when i though I did but in reality no. i feel like i still love him but not shure if I'm in love with him
Last updated on:2026-02-20T22:50:05+05:30
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when you think about him today, do you miss him, or the version of yourself you were when you were loved? and if you’re honest… does loving him still feel like hope, or more like habit?
the goal stopped being “forget him” and started being “live without him.” the more i tried to force forgetting, the more stuck i felt. some days i still missed him, but i let the wave pass instead of fighting it.
172 days is not small. i remember hitting 6 months no contact and thinking “i’m good now.” then our anniversary came and it felt like DAY ONE again. i hated that. i even liked someone new too and it confused me so much. turns out healing isn’t linear. anniversaries hit different. it doesn’t erase your progress, even if it feels like it
You are doing amazing! Please don't beat yourself up because your mind went back to what it could have been. Thats a very normal human reaction. Just dont let it pull you back to him. You are super strong, you've got this honey!
thank you so much💕💕