Been almost two years of on and off with this guy. He was my first bf. and I just can’t believe everytime we break up it rlly does drain the living out of me. this break up. I was mad that he didn’t tell me he was back in my city for the weekend since he lives out of town for school. he just didn’t let me know he was here and I had missed him. wasted two whole days. asked me if I wanted to link today on the Sunday before he goes back. I j couldn’t believe firstly I was upset last week bc he didn’t tell me he was moving cities and then all of a sudden he doesn’t tell me that he’s in the same city as me…. it j seemed so weird. would you not let your significant other know? I found out two days after he came back for the weekend and we were calling the whole time and he didn’t think to bring it up. we got into an argument then he said “my hoes would treat me better then you.” ah my heart. bc he’s cheated on me before. multiple times 5 that I know of. and just yeah. it’s the fact that for the past two years I have scafricced a lot of my life to love him. to give him everything he wanted. even after I found out about the cheating. and he would just bring it up. I can’t get a single ounce of respect. I can’t seem to stop crying today. I’m sure this is our 1093747298th break up. but this fr will be our last. I’m not sad that he is mean and has such an ugly heart I’m truly upset I let him treat me like that. and could still love him all my heart. I feel a bit better writing this down. to healing. and to never letting a man treat u like u trash amen
Last updated on:2026-03-03T01:36:39+05:30
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Healing takes time but you'll get there. We'll all get there.
remember... healing is not linear. allow it
when you picture going back again, what are you hoping will be different this time
being so on and off I know he won’t change. I just hope that I wait patiently for someone who will never hurt me like that or to just even respect me and be loyal and kind
ditto i was in an on and off thing for almost three years. first love too. he cheated, lied, made little comments that sliced me open. and somehow i still loved him with my WHOLE heart. the “my hoes would treat me better” line? that’s cruelty. i remember realizing i wasn’t even crying over him anymore. i was crying over how i let myself accept that. that part really HURT you’re not crazy for feeling drained. that back and forth takes the life out of you.
ah pls tell me it gets better! I don’t want him back. Hes not the person I do believed he was. but the same thing about how I even let that happen to me. it j makes me sooo angry i let so much stuff slide for him to still treat me like that in the end
Sorry to hear that, but trust me you can get over it. Love yourself first...