It all started the day I woke up and realized that something in our dynamic didn’t feel right. I had tried to fix things before, but I felt frustrated and unheard, and I needed to express myself. I wanted to talk to her, communicate my feelings clearly, and see if we could work on our relationship together and continue meeting each other halfway.
So, I did something I had never done before, I made a 21-minute voice note, venting everything I felt: how I was no longer comfortable, how things weren’t working, what I needed differently, where i think she has wronged or didn't take me as her priority, and all the things I wished would change. I spoke openly about my emotions, even mentioning, maybe too strongly, that if things weren’t working, it might be better for us to walk away, like I literally said "I can't continue with this" maybe my vn was too overwhelming for her, but atleast I was honest.
To my surprise, she chose to walk away. That moment changed everything.
Since then, things have not been smooth. after a week of no contact, I tried reaching out, but she told me her mind was made up and that she needed space, time to figure out what she wanted and how she felt. she always finds a way to tell me "i ended things" and she's giving me what i want, I respected that and gave her space. Two weeks passed. I reached out again. She reiterated the same things. I gave her more space. This continued for about a month after that initial voice note.
Eventually, few days ago after initiating contact and talking, she tried offering friendship on the call and i declined then ask if she could come see me.
she visited me recently. We spent time together, had a conversation, and yet again, she reinforced her stance. She said that, for now, she wants to be single. She’s enjoying her independence. She’s not ready for a relationship or responsibilities, and if she wants to connect with me, it’s better to start as friends.
But I declined the friendship, because I see no reason why you won't choose me but wants me close.
This journey has been confusing and painful. Part of me still wants her to reach out, part of me feels hurt that she gave up on me so easily, and yet, I also see the importance of respecting both her boundaries and my own dignity.
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