What do you think about all this?

What do you think about all this?
First, a disclaimer—I know I’ll never truly know for sure and I know it doesn’t benefit me in any way. I also know it’s none of my business. But here we are.
A while ago my ex and I broke up. At first we were on good terms but eventually we went no contact. One night I was drunk and received terrible news about my grandpa. I messaged him because he’s the one person who would understand how I felt. I immediately regretted it unsent the message but I know he saw the notification.
I’ve always struggled getting over people I love and it’s even harder since we work at the same place. Every time I see him I feel like I have to look down. He barely acknowledges me and I can tell he’s not interested. My friends tell me he watches me when I get to work but I’m not sure I believe them.
Then a week ago he unblocked me. I’ve been checking his profile occasionally so I noticed it even though his intentions weren’t for me to find out. He hasn’t posted anything since 2023, but suddenly there are four new posts. This made me wonder if something big happened—maybe he got engaged had a child or started seeing someone. I know I’m overthinking, but he’s 35, and that feels like something that would happen.
I decided to unblock him on TikTok, and out of curiosity I checked his reposts. There were two that stood out one with a message about being with someone forever and another one on my birthday talking about finding the love of your life and having a baby. Both hit me hard.
Now I’m left wondering—does this mean he’s in love and I’m just stuck in the past? I know it sounds silly but sometimes we all need something to distract ourselves from the pain. It’s confusing. A few days ago I had a tough day and he kept looking over at me while I tried to hide my tears. I tried not to let him see me upset but when he left he opened the door for me and we acknowledged each other for the first time in months.
So why did he unblock me? Does it mean anything? I know the posts are old, but they still left me wondering. Let’s talk and assume what we want.
I’ll admit—I ended things because I need constant reassurance due to past trauma. We had different love languages and I always felt needy. I didn’t leave because of a lack of love though. But it still hurts especially after hearing that he said I imagined our relationship wasn’t serious after he pursued me so intensely.
I’m self-aware, but I can’t help overthinking the unblocking. Do you think he’s in love or is he just doing fine without me? Again I know I’ll never get answers but overthinking keeps my mind off things.

Last updated on:2024-11-20T16:32:36+05:30