i can’t even see it anymore and honestly there’s no point in hoping or daydreaming about finding better. like i’ve hit this point where i know i’ve never really been loved and i don’t think i ever will be. i’m just so tired like numb tired and my heart feels wrecked.
when people hit me with the you’ll find someone who loves you or you’ll find better it makes me feel worse. not cuz i’m still hoping for better but cuz i just wanna escape this loneliness. like i wish someone could love me but at the same time i know i need to learn how to be okay on my own.
but let’s be real i do want to be loved. i want someone who’s obsessed with me who brings me flowers calls me just because someone who’s actually excited about me. but i’ve given so much to people who treated me like trash and i stayed cuz i loved them. and yeah i looked dumb. or they picked someone else over me or worse they just didn’t fight for me at all. even the ones who did nothing ever really changed.
so i’m at this place where i’m like... maybe this whole dating thing isn’t for me. maybe i’m not anyone’s person, and that’s just how it is.
it sucks but i’m done hoping praying or even imagining someone better. like, i’m over it.
Last updated on:2024-12-09T17:46:04+05:30
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Don't give up hope. Love and happiness are possible for everyone
Don't compare yourself to others.
Focus on your own journey.
Seek professional help. A therapist can provide guidance and support.
Focus on self-love. Prioritize your own happiness and well-being.
It's okay to feel hurt. Allow yourself to feel your emotions.
I get this feeling so well trust me I’ve been there. I even hit rock bottom begging my closest people not to leave, but yeah they left anyway. That betrayal hit different like I was drowning, for real. Night after night I prayed for someone to just reach out and save me, but no one did.
It’s been almost months since all that and honestly my life’s been a total mess. I gave up on love ‘cause I’m scared of being broken again. But even now, when I think I’m over it, my heart still kinda hopes for love. Yeah loneliness can make you want someone, but I’ve learned the hard way that real happiness starts with you.
I’m working on loving myself forgiving myself and finally putting me first. It’s a journey for sure but it’s one that’s so worth it.