I've been in a relationship of this year and he was just amazing so kind respectful and loving

I've been in a relationship of this year and he was just amazing so kind respectful and loving. He was religious but I wasn’t and he still accepted me. He always spoke to me with so much care and we had tons of plans for the future. We dated for 9 months but we met over a year ago. I live in a pretty awful place and he was my only support. He comforted and accepted me and I made sure he felt the same way. Our relationship was honestly amazing.
He used to write me poems and I’d come up with fun activities for us to do. He shared his passions with me and I loved them and he loved mine too. He was sweet always caring. Even though he had his own struggles he was mentally strong patient and resilient. I looked up to him not just as my partner but as a person I respected a lot.
But things started shifting in the last months. He got distant and I knew he was going through stuff so I didn’t push him. I just tried to listen and help however I could. He even left his religion which definitely changed his mindset. He started doing things he once said he’d never do and it was hard. But I kept accepting him.
We promised we’d stick together through everything but the last month was rough. He was so cold and sometimes questioned if I still loved him. He talked to me like I was a stranger. I’d cry every night and morning. I told him how I felt but nothing changed.
I got so mentally drained crying for hours barely eating. One night I suggested we break up because of how I was feeling and how he wasn’t the person I knew anymore. He just said okay and it broke me.
After we broke up he told me he stopped loving me. When I asked why he couldn’t give me an answer. For 9 months he built up my dreams and hopes and I gave everything I had to the relationship. But it ended so quickly. During our time together (and before) I went through so much being bullied and abused by my family and friends. He was the only one who supported me. He once told me his biggest fear was breaking my heart that I mattered so much to him that I was a blessing in his life
Last week when I spoke to him about everything he said he had changed so much that he wanted to work in porn hook up with random people or even try polygamy. I was shocked. I feel like I lost the person I thought I’d spend my life with. Yes he proposed and we were engaged.
I could say more but I’m just so exhausted. I cry every day and feel so alone. I live in a place where it’s impossible to connect with people. I don’t have friends and my family is awful. He was everything to me and now he’s gone. I feel so lost and don’t know what to do anymore.

Last updated on:2025-01-02T17:10:18+05:30