We knew each other for like a year. Sometimes it felt like FWB sometimes a situationship sometimes a sneaky link. But the longer I dragged it out the more my selfesteem tanked. He was an international student just graduated this semester, and I’m a year behind. Even with the 13-hour time difference over the summer we somehow kept in touch. When fall came I still wanted to see him even though I knew deep down I needed to end it.
There were moments I knew I didn’t even like him like that I just craved some human connection. Finally at the last minute, I wrote him a letter. It wasn’t a love letter or anything just a short goodbye. I thanked him said I enjoyed our time told him he was comforting to be around and wished him well. Because I knew we didn’t want each other enough for anything real or serious.
He thanked me for the letter and honestly I’d have been fine if he left it there. But then at 4 a.m. he sent i’m too tired to process this right now but I promise I will. And that text? It messed me up. what’s there to process? That one text left me confused and mad.
Looking back I wish he never sent that last text. But it’s so him y’know? Always giving the bare minimum never really opening up the whole time we knew each other. Still, I guess I hoped that maybe this letter would get him to be vulnerable for once. Instead it just hurt putting myself out there and getting a vague I’ll process it.
I hate that it meant so much to me but it did. I said what I needed to say but he never will. It’s clear my letter caught him off guard. And honestly it stings to think he probably had no plans to give me any kind of closure. No Hey let’s stop staying in touch since I’m graduating and leaving the country. Nothing. If I hadn’t written that letter we’d probably just ghost each other.
I wasn’t even on his radar like tha just not a priority. And that’s on me for letting it drag out for so long. Situationships like this? They’re not it. End it early next time. Lesson learned.
Last updated on:2025-01-14T14:11:50+05:30
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His reply didn’t really make sense. Sounds like he wasn’t cool with you taking charge and ending things on your terms. A lot of guys have big egos and never think stuff like this could happen. But honestly you did the right thing not just for your feelings but also for the bigger picture. It would’ve been tough either way. At the end of the day whether he processes it or not is his problem not yours. You knew it wasn’t right for you and that’s a win.
wanna ask him what he even meant by that just for my own peace but I know I shouldn’t. I hate how he always leaves things so vague.
@Bumeen10 You think he does that on purpose or what?