So my bf (20m) and I (21f) broke up

So my bf (20m) and I (21f) broke up. I guess I should be calling him my ex now but it still doesn’t feel real. I’ve never cried this much in my life.
I finished work at 6pm yesterday and got a message from him on Discord saying he was leaving me then he blocked me on everything. It hurts so bad and I honestly feel like my life just hit a dead end.
He said he’s been unhappy for a while that I always expect him to take care of me and he wasn’t getting the same. I tried so many times to get him to talk about how he was feeling but he’d always tell me not to push him. I work retail and Christmas season was brutal like I worked 7 days straight this month and even got sick twice. I never expected anything from him just asked. He always said he didn’t have time for himself and I’d tell him all he had to do was say something. This month though he just seemed distant like being around me was a chore. I cried so much over it.
When I told him how I felt he’d just say sorry and go quiet. It honestly felt like he didn’t even like me. I spent Christmas with him and his fam we gave gifts to each other but all day he just seemed off. He said he was tired but was really mean to me snapping at me not looking at me even trying to embarrass me about my snoring in front of everyone. My stepmom almost yelled at him for how he was acting.
The next day I told him I was sad cause he didn’t get me anything for Christmas even though I got him stuff. I wasn’t asking for anything expensive just something from the heart. He went quiet after that. The whole day he ignored me and was cold whenever I asked what was wrong he just said I’m fine. He was supposed to pick me up from work yesterday but said he wanted the day to himself and would get me Saturday instead. I said it was cool.
Then he muted me on Discord and didn’t talk to me at all until he sent the breakup message.
Everyone in my life is telling me I did nothing wrong that he’s never been nice to me and I should’ve broken up with him first. But I can’t stop feeling like it’s all my fault like if I hadn’t said anything maybe he’d still be here.
I’ve never felt this hurt before. It’s like my heart got ripped out and stomped on. I’ve cried so much my eyes are red and sore. The worst part is after sending that message he dropped off a box at my house with all my stuff and every gift I gave him. Things I made for him even the matching bracelets and his promise ring to me. Every time I see the box I just cry again. I thought we were going to get married he was my first everything my first real love.
I just feel so sad blindsided and guilty like it’s all my fault. What do I do now?

Last updated on:2025-01-20T12:22:03+05:30