I met this girl recently and not gonna lie I fully fell for her

I met this girl recently and not gonna lie I fully fell for her. She’s literally the kindest sweetest most caring person I’ve ever met. But yeah... she’s taken happily in a relationship and there was never any shot for me.
We started spending a lot of time together and honestly it just made me spiral. Like, she’d casually flirt and tease me but deep down I knew it wasn’t gonna happen. If you were there you’d get it. I tried so hard to just be her friend to push my feelings aside but in the end I just kept hurting myself more.
She even introduced me to her friends and we hung out a lot. At one point we ended up spending the night (nothing happened). But after that I cried myself to sleep two nights in a row.
I’m not one to believe in love at first sight but she hit different. She was everything to me. She made me feel seen like I mattered like my dark days weren’t so bad. She actually listened to me. She cared. But to her I was just a friend. And for me... I couldn’t handle it.
So I did the only thing I could think of I forced myself out of her life. Literally 20 minutes ago I ghosted her and blocked her. I hate that I do this every time I get close to someone. I don’t mean to it just... happens. I’ve tried everything to move on and be a better person but nothing works.
Now I’m here. Heartbroken, spiraling, sobbing, with the worst headache, no food in my system, and zero clue what to do. I just want to cry until I can’t anymore. If anyone out there has advice please I need it. She didn’t want me to leave but I felt like I had no choice.
If by some wild chance you ever see this... I’m so sorry. Sorry for being selfish for cutting you off without warning and for not handling this better. Thank you for being my light when I needed it most. Thank you for just being you. I really hope your life is full of happiness and success. Maybe someday we’ll cross paths again and I’ll be in a better place to handle it.

Last updated on:2025-01-23T16:13:27+05:30