I feel so lost right now. I keep breaking no contact sending him letters every day begging him to come back... I even asked my friends and family to reach out to him but he blocked me everywhere doesn’t reply and acts like I don’t exist. I went to his favorite concert hoping to see him, and he just ignored me like I wasn’t even there. He promised he’d never leave me we fought so many times he’d break up with me make me cry hit me in front of people verbally tear me apart... but then 10 seconds later he’d say sorry tell me he loves me that he’d never leave me. This went on for months and I kept taking him back. Now he’s finally gone and I keep begging him to come back. I’m 21 he’s 29 and I feel like I’m losing myself. It’s like I’m losing my reason to even keep going. I’m in an abusive home and he was all I had. Now without him I feel like I can’t breathe. I keep having thoughts of ending it all. It’s hard. I just sit outside his house crying while he throws trash at me and acts like he doesn’t even know who I am. But I still love him so much. It feels like I’ll never heal or find someone like him. I need him to breathe he was my air. Why did he leave after promising me everything saying he’d marry me? He even got my name tattooed on his chest. I feel so betrayed lovebombed and abandoned. I found a dating app on his phone and he called me a bitch for going through his stuff slapped me in public and then broke up with me. After that I started chasing after him begging him to come back like some desperate crazy person. I can’t do this anymore.
Last updated on:2025-01-24T15:58:20+05:30
Comments (7)
Block him everywhere. Cut off all contact with him.
There's nothing wrong with you. You're worthy of love and respect.
He's a total manipulator. Don't fall for his games anymore
This is not love it's abuse. Please reach out for help.
Girl this is toxic AF. You deserve so much better.
stop chasing him fr he’s not good for you and you’re just embarrassing yourself. never ever ever chase a man. wait what do you mean you’re in an abusive household??
ngl OP physical abuse is a no go like that’s where it should’ve ended. and yeah I feel you on the blocking part been blocked by close friends for years and it still stings lowkey. hmu if you wanna talk more.