i miss her. so much. It’s only been a day but it feels like a piece of me is gone

i miss her. so much. It’s only been a day but it feels like a piece of me is gone. All I can do is cry and sleep, and even in my dreams she’s still there.
We had our problems a lot of them tbh. She couldn’t communicate and I kept trying to make up for it. But now I see that me doing all that wasn’t fair to myself.
Most of our relationship I was fixing myself and trying to hold her together too. I loved her so much I still do. I just wanted to help. But she didn’t really put in the same effort not for herself or us.
Seven years of friendship. She was my best friend the person I wanted to love right. Then almost two years of dating.
I hate that she made me love her so much. I hate how amazing she could be when she wasn’t so closed off. I wish so bad that we worked. I still do.
Maybe when I’m better. Maybe when she’s better. I’m stuck in this dumb post breakup phase where I still hope for something, still want reconciliation.
Maybe when we’ve both grown we’ll talk again?
But I know I can’t be her friend now. She’s had all of me my mind, my body, my soul. I can’t just be friends with someone who was everything to me. She’s the only person I’ve ever felt this way about the only one I’ve let this close.
And honestly I hope one day I can let her back in if she wants that too.

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