I told him I didn’t think he’d find anyone like me and he agreed he probably wouldn’t

I told him I didn’t think he’d find anyone like me and he agreed he probably wouldn’t. no one’s as sexy, funny, interesting, smart, big-hearted, beautiful-smiled, thoughtful and hardworking as me. I told him I know he said he’s done with me and trying to make it work but I needed him to know I’m done with him too. That I’m disgusted hurt and repulsed by how he didn’t consider me in his decisions how he just bailed on Friday and how cowardly that felt. I said I’ll always love the time we had that I wouldn’t be who I am without him but he’s not gonna see the person I become. He won’t know me won’t see me. If he wants to know about me he’ll have to ask someone else. He doesn’t get to be my friend.
I told him even if he woke up tomorrow or a year from now saying he made a mistake I wouldn’t take him back. I loved him and he broke me but I love me more.
I agreed we weren’t right for each other I see that now. I told him I realized it this weekend. I loved him up until Friday but the person I loved wouldn’t have been so cruel or sabotaged every chance to make things better. I told him I don’t recognize him anymore that he’s not the man I fell in love with and I don’t want a future with him. I told him I was starting to think he didn’t even like me as a person. He denied it of course.
I told him this relationship ended because of him. He decided the problems couldn’t be fixed. I loved him so much and bent over backward to make him happy changing myself to meet his needs whether it was about house stuff or giving him all my attention. But nothing was ever enough.
I even told him I thought he liked playing the white knight he was there for me through my struggles saw me bust my ass to become a lawyer and promised to support me. But the second I started focusing on my career (God forbid I care about my job after years of work and failing the bar multiple times) he felt neglected. He denied it to the end swore he could handle being with a career woman but I know better. One day I hope he’s honest with himself about it.
he once said we talked about my job too much and unprompted told me I should work on my work-life balance. Like, okay, thanks for the unsolicited advice bro.
As my final act of kindness I told him the way he handled this breakup like how he broke up with me didn’t communicate and left me out of the process was cruel. That he shouldn’t treat people he loves like that. I told him he needs to work on himself and heal not for me but for him. He said he appreciated it and I kinda hope he meant it.
I’ve been rotting in my apartment for days but after talking to him yesterday in person I feel weirdly more at peace. I told him it was the last time he’d see me gave him space to say whatever he needed and made sure I said my piece too. I’m proud of myself for that. I know I’ll be okay. I really believe that now. We’ll all be okay. :)

Last updated on:2025-01-28T13:28:15+05:30