I've always felt ugly. I'm disabled and as a kid other kids used to bully me for it calling me gross. I had a couple of girlfriends but they only liked me for my personality or my voice. One even manipulated and emotionally abused me. Then I met my last ex. She's beautiful smart funny everything. I thought she was way outta my league. We started hanging out a lot and she actually liked me. I liked her too but I thought she just liked me for my personality or voice which was fine. But she actually found me attractive too. Over our year+ long relationship she made me feel more confident than ever. I loved her so much. Everything she did felt like art every word like music. For once I felt seen. I would've done anything for her. I was going through a tough time my dad had just passed and she started pulling away. I checked in on her and helped her through her issues while I was grieving. Then it hit.
One day after I hadn't heard from her for a while she told me she cheated. She also said she was depressed. We talked and I had to fight for her to even speak to me. I had to pry to get more info on what happened. We kept talking and I had to console her a lot after that 'cause her mental health was slipping. Then my cat passed and I was still there for her but she wasn't there for me. We stopped talking one day. Not because we both agreed but because she said she couldn't just be friends anymore. Since I wasn't ready to take her back right away and needed time to heal I lost her completely. She was the only girl who ever made me feel comfortable being me and I had to comfort her through the guilt of cheating while she barely helped me deal with the pain of it. I had just lost my dad and my cat and I was supporting her but she left me feeling discarded and unloved.
Everyone says I’m too good for her that she doesn’t deserve me 'cause she cheated. But it’s been over a year and not one girl has even looked my way. I’m still heartbroken. I still lie awake wondering what I could’ve done different. If I was too good for her, why am I still lonely while she’s already moved on? Why do I feel like I’ll never find a girl as amazing as her? Why do I feel like I’m the one being punished for her cheating?
Last updated on:2025-01-28T13:29:40+05:30
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Looks like you don’t gotta change anything since she didn’t even give you a real reason for cheating.
She’s just coming up with excuses to justify it. Nothing you could’ve done. She clearly values physical stuff (prob sex) over actual love, and that’s on her, not you.
Cut her off ASAP. Like for real. If you keep talking to her (esp with the manipulative stuff you mentioned) it’s just gonna get messier and mess with your mental health even more.
You feel like you’ll never find anyone else cause the relationship felt so good or at least you thought it was, and you really believed she was the one. She’s not. There are so many other people out there and one of them is gonna be the right one for you the one who won’t cheat.
Feeling punished sucks but honestly life’s unfair like that. Bad things happen to good people. Take the hit process it and start healing. You’ve got this.