met the love of my life fr thought he was my soulmate n as a pretty cynical person i don’t say that lightly. we dated for a short time then he kinda disappeared said he was going thru too much n needed to be alone. 8 months later he hit me up again we reconnected fell hard n fast spent 3.5 months crazy in love living our best lives. he told me he’d never been so sure abt anything that everything in his life led him to me said all this deep romantic stuff. met my daughter my fam my friends n i met his. then early october he started pulling away said he was stressed struggling his depression got really bad. my bday is end of october n he was super distant barely communicating but we still went out. planned a dinner but before that we grabbed drinks n he straight up told me he didn’t wanna be alive anymore that he hated life n just needed to be alone. he left me there n i walked home alone completely wrecked. next day we agreed to take space for 2 weeks but he reached out after 6 days said he loved me n wanted to make it work asked if he could stay with me for a while. he stayed for 6 weeks but was super low just wanted to lay in bed n watch tv barely any affection beyond holding hands n a peck here n there. ngl i struggled w it felt like he wasn’t attracted to me like he didn’t want me. he tried to explain that he was "rebooting" that it’d take time n i really tried to understand. then dec he went out w work n stayed at his place for the first time in 6 weeks. i was anxious felt like he was pulling away again so close to christmas when we had plans. he finally answered n said he needed a day to think. i asked if that meant i should change my plans he said he didn’t know. later i texted him asking if he fell out of love w me he didn’t reply so i kinda lost it n told him to come get his stuff. total panic move i regretted instantly n told him that wasn’t what i wanted but he didn’t change his mind. now i’m just heartbroken. he told me he was wrong abt everything he said that i wasn’t the love of his life but when i asked when he fell out of love w me he said he hadn’t just that if u love someone u gotta let them go. i’m shattered. i know he’s struggling bad n the thought of him being alone kills me i miss him so much. how am i supposed to move on w no answers no closure
Last updated on:2025-01-29T13:24:23+05:30
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The thing about accepting this with no closure is you gotta take the silence as your closure fr... even silence is an answer. He’s just not ready for a real longterm thing and that’s outta your control so don’t stress over it. He made his choice to not give you answers or closure which shows he doesn’t see a future with you and is more focused on his own stuff. Maybe he just needs to heal and wants space. You can’t help someone who doesn’t wanna be helped so don’t let his issues drag you down. Just focus on you whether that’s career glowing up or whatever makes you level up.
Thanks but I kinda already know all this I'm in therapy and just tryna keep myself busy