I’m 20m and I’ve been in a lot of different relationships

I’m 20m and I’ve been in a lot of different relationships.
A couple years ago I was with this girl I fell super deep for. When she left it hit me hard. I cried a lot even hurt myself a few times but it didn’t last long. I kinda lost that feeling of life after that.
Then about a year ago I met this amazing woman. She was smart kind and beautiful. She expressed herself in ways that freaked me out at first, I’ve never been good at that. I guess I was scared of getting hurt again so we broke up in november last year. But after like a month we started talking again going to parties together she was at my place a lot. I started falling for her. She was always there when I was down.
Last week she stayed over and that weekend, she told me she met someone new.
I’ve never felt real pain in my body like this. I know it'll pass though I’ve been through this before. Things will get better I know. Time will do its thing, or maybe I’ll meet someone new.
But honestly I don’t want to meet someone new.
She knew my family they loved her. I loved her family.
Even though we didn’t have everything in common it was just... perfect. She was perfect. Exactly what I was looking for. So gentle so loving.
A lot of people try to show their exes they’re doing great after a breakup. I remember doing that with my first love but this time I just want her to know that I miss her.
She was always there for me and now... it’s all just gone. She met this new guy and I can’t handle it. I don’t want to get better because I don’t wanna let go of her. I need her back, even though I know she won’t come back.
I just wish she knew. I don’t want her to feel guilty, but I need her to know that this is killing me. I need her to know that breaking up with her in October was the worst decision I’ve ever made. I need her to know that she meant everything to me.

Last updated on:2025-02-14T13:20:49+05:30