We broke up like 4 months ago

We broke up like 4 months ago. He (45m) was messed up in every way disrespected me (34f) lied to me and had a drug problem. The last few years together weren’t easy and the addiction just made it worse but I kept holding on. He’s super close with his mom who enables him and basically shuts me out. Always made me feel like an afterthought like I didn’t belong. He’d run his relationship with me at my place and then have this separate life with his mom at hers. Last summer our connection was already broken and then we had this huge fight over the phone while he was at work. Out of nowhere he goes I’m fucking someone here at my job don’t call me again That hit hard. I don’t even know if he was lying but it felt like he just wanted to hurt me. That week was just full of arguing. I went to sleep crying every night. Then one morning I go to my closet and half of it’s empty. He literally packed up all his stuff and left. I checked my cameras and saw him leaving at like 3am with everything.
The holidays were tough but the start of the new year’s been even worse cause now he’s begging me to take him back. It hurts so much. I still miss the sober version of him before everything went downhill. I still love him so I told him I’d forgive him and let go of all the anger if he got everyone (my family and his mom) on the same page about us! Like we need to all talk together cause he’s never done that. And my family’s so over the disrespect that they think he’s bad for me and don’t believe he even loves me. I can’t get past this unless we have that conversation but now he’s just futurefaking me. He texts me giving me false hope dangling this future in front of me then switches up and says My mom will never accept you. You’re not in a relationship with her, you’re in one with me. He’s got no problem keeping me in the dark while he comes and goes in my life. It’s messing with me and I just wish he’d stop texting me from random numbers to check on the pain he caused and keep giving me false hope. I know it’s never gonna work it’s just an impossible situation.

Last updated on:2025-02-24T11:33:52+05:30