I get it I messed up wasn’t my best self

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I get it I messed up wasn’t my best self. Pain really changed me into someone I wasn’t. You had every right to leave but playing with my head when all I wanted was to make things right wasn’t fair. I would’ve never dipped on you even though I felt like you kinda had the first real shot at me but I respect your decision after I made myself look crazy. I know my past pain caught up to me when I just wanted to love you. It blocked me from seeing who I really am but loving and losing you helped me find my way back. I’m really sorry I hurt you I wanted you to be the person my world revolved around the one I’d give everything for. I miss the laughs I miss the dogs catshit man the victim lol and Big Moose the cat. I miss having you by my side I miss that we were almost gonna be parents. Lyla would’ve been such a perfect name. I miss you picking at my skin for ingrown hairs I miss that love I didn’t realize was there. Yeah we both had our issues but I was ready to work through it all. I made dumb decisions and mistakes didn’t know what real love looked like cause I’d never seen it. I hurt you and regret it deeply even though I wasn’t myself and going through mania without help. My therapist says I need to forgive myself and I am but I still regret what I couldn’t say. Your love was always my end goal cause even through all the mess we made I knew love could pull us through. I’m sorry for the pain and I’m sorry I hurt you.

Last updated on:2025-03-07T15:09:55+05:30

Comments (10)

NiceNinaa
NiceNinaa 12 mths ago

Sending good vibes for your healing.
You'll get there.

Melanochy
Melanochy 12 mths ago

Past pain is a real blocker. Glad you're breaking through.

lizzaWon
lizzaWon 12 mths ago

Love's messy tbh. But it's worth fighting for.

SuperCharge
SuperCharge 12 mths ago

End goal feels. That's a strong statement.

Hope2Cope
Hope2Cope 12 mths ago

Regret is a heavy vibe. But you're owning it

ExoticDiva
ExoticDiva 12 mths ago

Mania is no joke. Hope you're getting the help you need.

Genzgi45
Genzgi45 12 mths ago

Lyla that's a cute name.
Missed opportunities hit hard.

CatLineMeow
CatLineMeow 12 mths ago

Catshit man the victim lmao. That's kinda funny though.

topsecrat
topsecrat 12 mths ago

Feel this. Pain changes people, fr.

NoluckBeb
NoluckBeb 12 mths ago

Big mood. That's a whole emotional rollercoaster.