My boyfriend and I just broke up and I’m totally lost

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My boyfriend and I just broke up and I’m totally lost. I’m 33 he’s 31 and he was my first boyfriend my first everything. After two years together we ended things like 5 hours ago. Now I feel stuck and confused.
I live alone and yeah I have friends but none of them are the type I can really open up to. It’s hard. I don’t even know how to start no contact. Right now I just wanna talk to him and ask him to come back.
I have depression and bad anxiety and this breakup feels like way too much. I feel frozen like I can’t do anything. I’m having a panic attack and my body just feels numb. I don’t know what to do.
His birthday’s tomorrow and I want to wish him happy birthday hoping maybe we’ll talk again but I’m scared. I don’t wanna get hurt again. This is the first time I’ve felt anything like this and I don’t know how to handle it.

Last updated on:2025-03-10T16:56:56+05:30

Comments (13)

MaroonDU
MaroonDU 12 mths ago

I’m really sorry you're feeling this way breakups suck especially when it’s your first love and someone who meant everything to you. From my own experience with my ex even though we started online and had the distance thing to deal with I’ve learned that sometimes space is what you need to heal and get clarity. No contact isn’t about forgetting them it’s more about giving yourself time to process and rebuild. It’s okay to feel lost right now take comfort in small things like breathing or talking to someone who gets it. You’re not alone in this and little by little you’ll find the strength to move forward.

Taouklad
Taouklad 12 mths ago

Chill out and be easy on yourself for a sec focus on you not him he's the one who hurt you who cares about his bday

Ableworn
Ableworn 12 mths ago

my anxiety makes it hard to reach out but i feel like i’m drowning. tried joining chat groups for support but i’m too anxious to even say anything. feel so lost and can’t stop thinking about her

AvirexVopa
AvirexVopa 12 mths ago

Girl I got you if you wanna talk hit me up anytime. I'm here

LummpyGrrl
LummpyGrrl 12 mths ago

just delete his contact info i know it's tough but it'll help. if you don't wanna let go completely write his number somewhere you won't look. just clear everything even if it’s just from your phone. sending love 💕

tackko213
tackko213 12 mths ago

Breakups are tough no cap. But since you’re dealing with anxiety and stuff talking to a therapist could really help you get through it. It might also be good to reach out to someone close to you like a friend you trust just to have someone listen.
But yeah like everyone’s saying no contact is key. Just take it one day at a time healing takes time but that’s just how it goes.

Aquagurl11
Aquagurl11 12 mths ago

Commenting on my first breakup and idk how to do no contact...
I’m sorry you're going through this alone rn just know you're not really alone. With time you'll start feeling normal again. I'm still not over my ex either but the urge to reach out gets less each day. Sending you all the love and strength 💖

CoverFaith
CoverFaith 12 mths ago

The key rn is to distract yourself. The feels can hit hard and it’s okay to cry but remember even if it’s hard to see now anyone who breaks your heart isn’t worth the energy later. Going back feels right since it’s comfy and familiar but trust is gone now.
Just focus on you what makes you happy your hobbies your passions.

GiminiZoe
GiminiZoe 12 mths ago

This advice is fire fr. Just take it day by day and distract yourself that'll help.

Itslima
Itslima 12 mths ago

I get it I struggle with anxiety and depression too. You can message me anytime if you wanna vent I'm going through the same thing and feel super lost and scared. I'd do anything for him to message me right now.

PeriLuv
PeriLuv 12 mths ago

take walks do some yoga stay hydrated get rest read cook or clean. count your blessings let the experience make you stronger.

sweetbread
sweetbread 12 mths ago

No contact is just that… and then you gotta sit with those uncomfortable feelings. That's how you go through the grief and separation. You gotta feel it to get to the other side 🥰

Sharpmind
Sharpmind 12 mths ago

Yeah the feels suck only if you think it’s gonna last forever and you’ll never get out of it
It’s just temporary trust me on that