our relationship was amazing while it lasted

our relationship was amazing while it lasted. we had the same morals n ideals even talked about a future together n everything just clicked. our personalities were super compatible too. but at the same time we both had our own struggles. he grew up w parents who relied on him too much emotionally n shut down his feelings a lot. kinda passive aggressive. me personally i got that anxious attachment style n an abandonment trigger. we talked about these things n honestly navigated them pretty well.
a couple days before we broke up we had a small argument abt boundaries. we never really fought before. he wanted some space which i respected but i was anxious bc he had just started his new job n i was leaving for a work trip soon. we talked it through n he explained work had been stressful but he still wanted to reassure me. at one point he even broke down said he hated hurting me. after a super emotional convo we worked it out n it felt better.
i stayed at his place that night n in the morning i asked if we were good before he left for work. he said yes kissed me goodbye. but i had this anxious feeling all day. we texted normally even made plans for the weekend. he told me he loved me after i said i appreciated him talking things through w me. then that night he asked to come over. that's when he dropped the bomb. said he was breaking up w me needed to work on himself outside a relationship. refused to talk about it just insisted on leaving. i was absolutely wrecked. it felt like my whole world just collapsed.
he mentioned wanting to go no contact. i did text n call a couple times nothing crazy just needed to get it outta my system. unfortunately his silence made it clear he wasn't gonna respond. about a week later i confronted him in person. he wasn’t happy abt it bc it caught him off guard but i needed closure. that’s when he told me he’d been questioning for the past two months if he even loved me. said he wasn’t sure n would rather break up now than keep leading me on. that shattered me. i got upset n said some hurtful things bc i wanted him to feel even a fraction of what i felt. but he was completely shut down wouldn’t even look me in the eyes. dude looked like a guilty dog. just kept repeating “i don’t know what you want me to say” which made me wanna scream. no apology no emotion just a wall. this was the same person who said he loved me n saw a future w me barely a week n a half before.
i got my closure but this pill is impossible to swallow. sometimes i feel like i’ll never find someone as good as him. logically i know he’s got his own stuff to work on n i prob do too. but i wish we coulda worked on it together. i'm really trying to move on but it's rough. we live super close n have similar interests so we’ve already crossed paths. inevitable but still hard. then i found out around two weeks later that he was already on dating apps. that broke me. like who even is this person.
i guess i’m just looking for insight advice literally anything. has anyone been through this on either side? how do i actually move on n stop hurting?

Last updated on:2025-03-19T11:54:49+05:30