I honestly don’t even know where to start

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I honestly don’t even know where to start. First year was amazing longest strongest relationship I had but by the second year I got so anxious and started arguments and stuff just out of fear that it’d fall apart. And that’s exactly what happened I didn’t realize until it was too late. I never got the help I needed kept going back to her thinking it’d fix things but probably just made it worse for her and now here I am stuck with regret. It’s been almost a year and I feel like I haven’t changed at all. The way I miss her is honestly driving me crazy and I’m starting to think I’ll never get out of this. I try distracting myself but end up in this depressed state every time. I’ve lost all my energy confidence and blaming myself isn’t helping at all. I can’t even sleep without waking up randomly and I just feel so lonely like the weeks are dragging by. Feels like I’m making zero progress and now I’m dealing with mood swings that just make everything worse my thoughts turning so negative that it feels like there’s only one way out. I miss her so much. I tried everything to get back with her and even when I did it still wasn’t right. Now every day feels like one of those nightmares I used to have when we were together. I’m losing hope in everything and have no idea how I’m gonna move on. I think about her every single day and how we used to talk is still affecting my days. I just feel stuck in this endless loop.

Last updated on:2025-03-17T13:20:04+05:30

Comments (3)

Humanheart
Humanheart 12 mths ago

You gotta cut contact now that you know it’s not gonna work delete the pics and stay off socials where she’s at don’t look into her life anymore. Whoever’s meant to leave will bounce and whoever’s meant to stay will stay even when it’s tough. Just remember the people who love you believe in you, they want what’s best for you so maybe take a step back and focus on changing your cycle. Also stay off your phone for a bit. I know it’s hard but do it for your fam or your friends do it for the people who actually value you and see your worth.

KeepitSaral
KeepitSaral 12 mths ago

hope this helps let me know if you would like to talk more

KeepitSaral
KeepitSaral 12 mths ago

hey I hope this comment finds in you a better state.
well I have kind of faces something similar and what really helped me was first accepting my own flaws, the day I realised that all the circumstances and situations made me the person I was and there was no other way it definitely gave me a lot of compassion towards myself, since without self acceptance there can't be any change.Once you accept this. Then you can work on daily aspects of your life like finance, health, creativity, Learning and also make sure you are cultivating compassion in your life.i.e empathy in action. the best way to transform oneself is Compassion. There is no better way.being genuinely and unconditionally concerned and interested in other people is a really good way to transform one self