Since I was in grammar school I’ve always dreamed of having a girlfriend. Not like just sex but a real healthy relationship with a beautiful girl you know? Just vibing with someone you really care about.
But when I was in high school that dream almost came true. There was this girl in my class. At first she seemed like any other girl nothing too special. But when I got to my final year something just clicked and I fell for her hard. I honestly don’t know why but suddenly she was the most amazing beautiful girl I’d ever met.
Thing is I kinda walked right into a trap. From the start I knew my feelings were one-sided. She wasn’t into me. She’d talk to other guys and reply to my texts like hours later. At first I didn’t wanna accept it but after weeks of hoping it hit me: this could either be my future wife or my biggest heartbreak. My mind was telling me to move on but my heart was like nah. And time was running out. We only had a few weeks left before the school year ended.
The love I felt for her was unreal. I’d wake up thinking about her. During the day? Her again. Late at night? Still thinking about her. Even the smallest moments with her like her smiling at me felt like a dream. I’d leave my phone’s Wi-Fi on just hoping she’d reply. I even offered to help her with homework and she said yes. One week before Easter we sat together to study.
We finished the work fast but then we just talked. And in that moment something clicked I realized it was over. She had zero interest in me and I finally got it. The day that was supposed to be amazing turned into the worst nightmare. I was heartbroken as hell I just wanted to cry. It hurt worse than anything physical. Luckily after that I only saw her a few more times since we went to different universities.
But the worst part? It wasn’t the heartbreak. People around me say there’s only one true love and now I’m scared I won’t ever find that again. Like maybe I won’t ever truly love someone else because she was the one. Even a year later I still think about her sometimes and remembering those moments makes me feel sick. I still hope I’ll find real love in the future but deep down I know I haven’t healed yet and maybe I never will. That thought honestly scares me.
What do I even do now?
Last updated on:2025-03-17T16:47:16+05:30
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hey Hope you are doing better.Just wanted to share that from my prespective though you had really strong feelings and dreams with this person but at the end it was all more in your mind.and just because she had less interest doesn't mean that you will never find Love or it doesn't exist.Buddy How can it be your true Love when she was not altogether interested to be with you from the beginning as much as you wanted to be.Give your self Another chance and trust me ,it's there for you.Just remember when your person will be there ,she will be as interested in being with and around you as much you will be.Till then focus on becoming the most Joyful, peaceful and serene version of yourself my friend. I assure you Love is right here just stop Waiting for someone to come into your life to feel.
hope this makes you feel better.Have a blessed day
Hang out with your squad. Good vibes only.
That one true love thing is kinda sus. Plenty of fish in the sea, ya know?
Don't let one experience define your love life
Heartbreak hits different. Especially the first one.
Oof that's rough.
Been there felt that.
Big mood. Unrequited love is a whole vibe.
Don’t stress fam it’s the first time you’ve been in love you’ll get over her with time. You’ll fall for ppl again just make sure next time it’s mutual. You’ve got a whole bright future ahead of you fr.