i fell crazy hard for this woman but the issue?

i fell crazy hard for this woman but the issue? she had a bf and was in a 7 yr relationship. at first i told her i’d just love her from a distance let her do her thing but things got messy fast. we basically became full on partners companionship chemistry everything. she told me she wasn’t thinking about marriage and when i asked if she’d be in my life, she said she’d consider it.
by nov she made it clear i’d have to break up with her around march but still kept me close. i saw so many red flags knew i should leave but i was way too attached and just went with the flow. it got so bad this whole situation had me spiraling into anxiety depression and sleep deprivation. ended up needing meds.
thing is i made her my entire world. spent all my time with her helped with her phd took care of everything she needed. i completely lost myself. by dec i had a full-on mental breakdown ended up in the hospital. after 5 days of therapy the doc told me to cut it off so i did—jan she wanted me to wait till march but i held my ground.
it’s been 2.5 months. cried almost every day for two months straight but now? the sadness is turning into anger. she got her phd (which i put in work for) she’s job hunting and she’s getting married to her bf in a few months. meanwhile i lost my job i’m heartbroken struggling with productivity and still dealing with the emotional wreckage.
we’re in no contact but she texted me some bs like in a few years this will pass and we can be close friends. i hate myself bc literally everyone my friends my doc my fam—warned me and now they’re just like yeah saw that coming. i don’t even know how to get back on my feet.

Last updated on:2025-03-24T18:03:29+05:30