am i wrong for texting her again after a year since we broke up?

am i wrong for texting her again after a year since we broke up? i did it cuz i was missing her so bad i couldn’t hold back anymore. i wasn’t sleeping at all just stuck in my head thinking about her our convos, our memories. i miss her every day but i usually keep it together try to move forward without looking back. but yesterday it hit different and i ended up asking how she’s doing wished her happy women’s day. she said she’s good moved on which is what i thought i wanted to hear. but then she hit me with a text that shattered me
i was with you for 3 years and you always tried to push me away. i kept trying to change that but couldn’t. you never loved me and now that i’m gone you don’t even regret it. i made some wrong life choices.
i mean... yeah i pushed her away at first had my reasons. but she changed that. she changed me. in the last two years we had some of the best times together. i hold on to those memories but looks like she’s holding on to the bad ones more. maybe that’s why she sent that. but the part where she said i never loved her? that hit deep.
i don’t really have anyone i feel emotionally connected to. no parents no real friends just me. and she was the only person i ever let myself be vulnerable with. i even told my parents about her. like why would i do that if i didn’t love her? the habits she helped me build two years ago i still follow them. i still use the products she gifted me. i still rewatch the movies we saw together. my daily life is full of reminders of her. why would i keep doing all this if i never loved her?
if she wanted to hurt me with that text she did. but what do people even get from hurting someone like that? i don’t get it.

Last updated on:2025-03-26T17:12:01+05:30