idk why I even called him that day but we ended up talking for hours like 2 maybe 3 and then we did it again the next day and the next it just became our thing we’d talk every day abt everything and nothing did assignments together studied together someti

idk why I even called him that day but we ended up talking for hours like 2 maybe 3 and then we did it again the next day and the next it just became our thing
we’d talk every day abt everything and nothing did assignments together studied together sometimes just stayed on call existing in each other’s space if he didn’t call I did (rarely tho cuz pretty sure there wasn’t a single day he didn’t call) it just became normal we’d talk abt childhood cartoons anime I used to go off abt zodiac signs movies all that
and then that moment in class
idk what came over me but I wanted to hold his hand instead I grabbed a pen and started doodling on his palm just random shapes lines—lowkey just an excuse to touch him without making it obvious he looked at me all amused and went "you could just say you wanna hold hands yk I laughed it off but inside?? I was done for then came the conversation the one that changed everything we were on the phone as usual and outta nowhere he hit me with do you like me? and me being an actual coward panicked and went ofc I do but not like that
LIAAAARRRRRRR
I knew he wasn’t looking for anything serious he’d literally ask me if I was fr abt dating to marry n I said yeah obv I don’t do short-term stuff he wasn’t on that wave but I really liked him and thought keeping him as a friend was better than losing him completely
after that things just shifted calls got shorter moments got fewer when his birthday came around we still talked we still had whatever this was but it felt… heavy like something was off
and then after his birthday everything just… stopped
by 2023 we weren’t just distant we were ignoring each other like actually walking past each other like strangers
then somehow in 2024 we started talking again outta nowhere after almost a year of silence we had three convos each lasting hours like we were making up for lost time it felt easy familiar like no time had passed
then he asked me would you have said yes to me
and I told him I had no reason to say no
but he never actually asked.
then I found out abt this girl who liked him everyone in our group knew he’d flirt w her let her think there was something but never committed when I asked why he just said I don’t wanna be rude
then during one of our last convos he finally said something that made it all click
he told me he wants a relationship but doesn’t wanna get too attached cuz at the end of the day he’s gonna marry whoever his mom picks
and just like that it hit me
I was holding onto something that never even had a future something that only ever existed in my head
after that we drifted again convos faded back to ignoring and then one night I called him told him something random nothing deep nothing important he responded we talked for like 2 mins and just like that it was over
that was our last conversation
and maybe that’s how it was always meant to end

Last updated on:2025-03-27T12:21:33+05:30