my bf broke up w me long story short we on diff paths rn he graduated already n i’m still tryna finish we’re 20 n 24 he’s older but age was never an issue neither was bein in diff life stages
but this year everything switched up
we actually broke up once before in june 2024 both breakups were lowkey good if that makes sense i took it hard but that’s more abt my attachment style than the actual breakup
first time we broke up he was super insecure n i got way too attached in an unhealthy way we took a break n a month later we started talking again we made it official in jan bc we wanted our comeback to be special and tbh it was
fast forward to this weekend we used to call everyday but last friday (feb 28) he went out w friends nothing new but the next day he called his friends instead of me i was hurt but i knew it was just my attachment kicking in then sunday i texted gm n he hit me w the i can’t do this anymore he said he wasn’t happy we were going diff ways n he needed to heal from our first breakup n past relationships
thing is my ex kinda has a pattern he struggles w bein alone even after our first breakup he was w other ppl he only really started grieving us when we started talking again so he never actually processed it (his words not mine) n looking back one month was never gonna be enough for us to heal
he said he wanted to be alone we broke up over the phone n i wasn’t mad still not we only saw each other on weekends since i’m broke n our dates were mostly on him
it’s been a week n nah i’m not over it not expecting to be either it’s been a lot i miss him bad but more than that i really thought he was my endgame n deep down i still feel like he is
he once told me smth that fits him now i see in you the foundation of the person i wanna build my life w but you’re not that person yet
and now i feel the same abt him he was amazing not perfect we had problems but always met in the middle never really fought just small arguments that got under our skin
idk what’s next for us or for me i don’t wanna say it but i rlly hope we cross paths again i know i shouldn’t wait for him n i’m not tryna do that
he chose himself over me n i respect that i could never do that i don’t love myself enough yet to make that choice but i love him enough to respect his space n not reach out not anytime soon
this could take us anywhere but rn i gotta focus on myself n actually heal
yesterday i felt peaceful but not bc i was healing more like i was numb today i feel bad nostalgic but also more alive than ever
Last updated on:2025-03-27T15:25:30+05:30
Comments (7)
Don't beat yourself up about your attachment style.
It's something you can work on.
Hoping to cross paths again is understandable.
But don't wait around.
That quote he said is kinda deep, ngl. But also kinda ouch.
Grieving us when we started talking again that's a choice. Hmm.
One month def wasn't enough time to heal.
Attachment styles are a real thing tho.
Relatable.
how u feeling rn? it’s been a while since my breakup and it’s his bday today. I told him during the breakup not to expect a text but I miss him and keep thinking about all the stuff we did for his bday