i'm so heartbroken rn this sucks. my bf really doesn’t care after all. it was never gonna get better when there was barely any respect to begin with but i still clung to false hope like an idiot. i know this might be for the best like at least i’m heartbroken over this and not something worse. i wasn’t perfect either my communication sucked and i was always apologizing for everything old and new. i don’t really regret anything bc i ignored every red flag on purpose for so long but honestly i got off easier than some. at least i’m not scared anymore for now.
still feels like it won’t get better w other ppl tho. kinda scared anyone else will just start off nice then end up hurting me the same or worse. i just wanna focus on myself but it sucks that human interaction is part of being human. my family already gave me enough pain and friends have come and gone. i put so much aside for this love even myself but that was my choice. i knew i was being dumb trying to change something out of my control. idk what to do rn just feel sad writing this all out.
how do i even start trusting ppl again. feels like pain is just part of existing and i have to risk it no matter what. i just wanna be alone and isolate myself from everyone. wanna survive on my own for as long as possible w/o worrying about anyone else. just wanna take care of my basic needs without feeling like some cave gremlin.
Last updated on:2025-03-31T12:02:43+05:30
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Grieve but don’t shut yourself off from your people. Feel everything but keep moving. You’ll heal with time. It’s all gonna be okay.
it’s not like i wanna be alone either. i just hate this weird tension when i’m around people. i’d be fine not feeling happy all the time but this uneasiness turns into something worse like i’d rather just be left alone. then i get defensive n put walls up. idk what else to do abt it even tho i’ve been in n out of therapy so many times. i don’t even trust therapists tbh they always make my problems feel small even when i tell them that’s exactly why i leave.
not asking for pity or a fix i just want some validation like maybe this actually gets better. but instead i just feel like i’m the problem. like both professionals n the people close to me make me feel like i don’t matter. i wish i didn’t think about it so much even when i try to stay busy or work on myself. maybe i’m not doing either enough to actually appreciate small moments when i’m caught up in avoiding everything.
@carelessemo Yeah I get it it's tough fr. Emotions be hitting hard it sucks. Been through something similar. But tbh only you can really validate yourself. No need to be so hard on yourself tho breakups are already rough and lowkey traumatizing. Maybe try to be gentle with yourself find little things that make you happy. End of the day, YOLO :)
Hello Dear friend,
I hope this message finds you in a better shape and it's so true that pain is an inevitable part of life, and it comes no matter what, but yes there is way to handle this pain and be totally unaffected. and that is Called Compassion. Only Compassion is what can help a person the inevitable nature of life that's pain.Towards Nature, towards needy,towards helpless ,towards animals, towards Life.
hope this helps Kindness and Humility go a long way