i don’t even know what’s wrong with me i know better but i keep going back i’ve loved him since i was 10 we grew up together he’s everything to me kind funny beautiful hardworking just him we broke up like 1-2 years ago idk anymore it’s been so back n forth i swear i know better but he makes my brain go stupid and i love him so much i tried dating but i just can’t i don’t want other guys i’m not even attracted to them they just annoy me two wanted to marry me but i couldn’t like them even a fraction of how much i love him i thought we still had something he’d stay around me a lot give mixed signals there was kissing touching at first he refused to sleep w me said it made him feel guilty then suddenly it didn’t but before it was so romantic like listening to my heartbeat forehead kisses today it happened and it wasn’t like that it was rushed annoyed w me just to get it over with and i’m shattered at the end he hit me w the whole never again thing i know it’s my fault i’m dumb but i love him i tried being alone miserable i tried dating miserable but when i’m w him i feel real happiness and now i just feel empty i hate myself i just wanna be normal love someone who actually wants me but i just want him
Last updated on:2025-04-01T17:03:16+05:30
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May be if that's the case, Just go after him with all the might you have, Accept your neediness and go with it. Once and only once you go ahead accepting this neediness and be with it and be aware of it.Then you only your heart will understand what you are putting yourself through.Its all about you love him, but do you really love yourself too
I'm in the same boat
It sucks so bad
@deooswag m here if u ever need to vent
u gotta go no contact and heal i know it’s easier said than done but u have to stay strong even when u don’t wanna it might take a while but it’s what u need he knows u love him and he’ll use that stay smart stay strong much love ❤️
ik it’s hard he used to love me too in that real pure way it lasted like 4-5 years before i ended up here i kept thinking we could get back to that someday i just feel so dumb
@deooswag keep ur head up love u got this even if it doesn’t feel like it i’ve been there it makes u stronger and keeps u from ever getting played again 🫶