Last year I was in a messy situationship for like 8 months with one of the most evil men ever manipulative abusive all of it. I felt so much for him in a way I never have before and honestly I don’t think I’ll ever feel that way for someone again. I was fine for months went on dates was seeing someone I kinda liked but no one even comes close to him in my head even though he was horrible. I feel so empty and broken.
It kinda feels like leftover emotions but something has been triggering it more lately. We cut things off in July but were still kinda talking on and off until he stopped coming to my gym in November... when he literally got arrested there lol. But now he’s back and I’ve seen him a few times. I thought I was over him because I was doing so good for months but now it’s like I’m right back where I started. It’s more of a body reaction hard to explain but I feel like I’m back in that situation even though I was genuinely happy without him.
It’s just such a scary feeling like it took me so long to get out of it and heal and now it feels like I’ve made no progress like I have zero control over my feelings and I’ll never fully get over it. I should be over it by now… and I really thought I was :(
Last updated on:2025-04-03T14:07:50+05:30
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Sometimes pushing the feelings away or wishing the feelings were not there is not option.Let the feelings be and still be as just the awareness of it and make a different decision, feeling all the discomfort of not choosing the same option as your mind wants could be a better option
I feel like the way ppl judge women in this kinda situation the way u judge urself needs to go fr it's not helping. Saying I should be over it just makes it worse. Even if u slipped back into it caught feelings again or feel stuck that doesn't erase the progress u made. The fact that u were doing better before shows it's possible to be happy n feel okay again. That's actually a good sign. It proves those feelings how they mess w ur mindset aren't the full truth there's some distortion going on probs from him messing w ur head past trauma playing a role too.