I dated my ex for five years but we broke up when we were 18—too young too immature. I left him when I felt like he was pulling away like I was losing control. I’ll admit I treated him badly. I wanted all his time wanted marriage wanted to be his number one above everything. His family lived far and whenever he visited them I’d get upset. The resentment built up and eventually we let each other go.
For a year after he called me every day went to bars calling my name. I knew I was toxic and I needed to work on myself. My home life was a mess so I ended up with a guy I knew I’d never be with just messing around. Then I actually fell for him. I ignored all my ex’s calls.
Three years later I finally picked up. He asked me to leave my relationship. I told him I’ll always love him that he’s my person that he’ll always have a place in my heart. I told my partner about it all about our conversations. My ex wanted to see me a few times so we met up for coffee. It was nice we could talk about anything no judgment no pressure. He knew every version of me and never stopped loving me. He’d mention other girls but I always knew he wouldn’t love them like he loved me.
Then my partner betrayed me. It made me work deeper on myself. I wanted to forgive him because I couldn’t forgive my ex.
My mom is dying and she hates my partner. She told me never to marry him to marry my ex instead.
Now from the way my ex talks I can tell he’s pursuing someone new. I’m genuinely happy for him. He deserves it. But a part of me hurts because now that we’re older this girl will get the life I spent five years waiting for the wedding I always wanted with him.
Meanwhile I’m nowhere near marriage. My family dislikes my partner he betrayed me and I feel lost. But I don’t wanna feel sad for my ex. I wanna love him enough to be happy for him but I spent the day crying.
I know there’s a chance things won’t work out for them but I don’t wanna wish that just to make myself feel better. I wanna hope for the best for him.
Im scared I lost the love of my life but if it was meant to be it would’ve happened. I don’t know what to do. Sorry for the rant.
Last updated on:2025-04-10T12:28:11+05:30
Comments (1)
girl he’s your ex for a reason
if he wanted you back he would’ve done it
he’s got a new girl now and it actually seems healthy she treats him well so let him be happy
i’ve been in a similar spot before only difference is
i’m really proud of you for working on yourself, fr
i know it hurts but you gotta let him go
if y’all stay in touch and it doesn’t work out with his new girl then whatever happens happens
but for now i’d just let him be
also it’s not your mom’s place to decide who you should marry.if i was your ex i’d be lowkey mad that she’s tryna push you back together without even asking him how he feels
i had a dude do that to me once
he told me his mom said we could get married and i was like… bro you didn’t even ask if i wanted that lol
it pissed me off ngl
hope everything works out for you tho