I feel like it’s my fault. I couldn’t communicate properly and kept bottling things up instead of addressing them in the moment. I’d try to figure it out myself but it would just end up exploding and I’d get super emotional. Now I’m starting to wonder if those overly emotional and anxious parts of me were connected to something medical.
It’s been 4 months of no contact but we work at the same place and it’s been tough to move on. I still care way too much about what he thinks of me. I’ve got a doctor’s appointment tomorrow but it’s so frustrating thinking something out of my control might’ve caused me to act like that and hurt him.
Maybe I’m just searching for a reason something to blame for why we’re not together anymore. I still love him even though logically I know it happened for a reason and that it’s probably for the best.
After reflecting with a clear head I realized that possible medical stuff didn’t force me to do anything. It might’ve amplified my emotions but I still take full responsibility for my actions. I wasn’t the best partner I stumbled a lot because of anxiety and uncertainty—but I’m done blaming anything else.
Last updated on:2025-04-14T13:59:19+05:30
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I'm dealing with the same vibe like the more I think about my relationship and how it crashed I'm realizing I just got stuck in my own head instead of dealing with stress right. I just let it build up and took it out on him and the relationship kinda messed up. I feel mad guilty about it tho.
Yeah I get the whole overthinking thing. The more I think about it the more I overthink it again which is not the vibe at all. I feel kinda guilty too but all I can do is learn and keep working on myself but it's just so hard tho
Gonna keep this for future me same problem vibes