I don't even know where to start. I'm the type to give mad chances and never really give up on people. I usually just deal with it and call it banter but lately he's been super hurtful.
We dated for like three and a half years then he cheated and broke up with me. He came back later asking for forgiveness and I was dumb and took him back when his new relationship flopped we were just friends though.
Fast forward three years he's been through like a bunch of relationships and I've been torturing myself cause I still love him. He'd give me crumbs of attention when he was dating someone else then give me a ton again when they broke up.
Honestly idk when I finally saw the light. I started seeing him different. Like wow this dude never respected me.
He's always comparing my work to his even though we do totally different things. Always saying how are you tired when you just played games all day and still got paid?
He slaps my arm even when I tell him to stop cause it hurts. He makes sure he overpowers me when I try to get away. Pins me down and tickles me even when I'm screaming for him to stop. Once he squeezed my shoulder so hard it was sore the next day no bruise though.
When we banter he always goes too far like attacking my looks how fat I am how old I look even though I'm only 25. He always says I look 30.
And honestly I'm losing myself. I'm exhausted. I'm not happy. He says I'm 30 so much I think I'm actually 30. He says he appreciates me and sorry for being a burden but his actions don't show it.
Call me stupid I know. But I'm about to snap I'm so drained. Part of me wants out but I also don't wanna lose him and what we had.
Last updated on:2025-04-15T15:32:39+05:30
Comments (7)
You’re not stupid loving someone deeply doesn’t make you foolish. But love shouldn’t come at the expense of your happiness and self worth. You matter too.
It sounds like you’ve been giving and forgiving over and over. But you shouldn’t have to lose yourself to keep someone who doesn’t respect you.
The fact that you’re recognizing his actions shows so much strength. It’s okay to prioritize yourself and choose a healthier path for your mental and emotional well being.
Being stuck in a cycle like this is emotionally exhausting. I hope you know you’re worthy of so much more than crumbs of attention. You deserve real love.
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It’s hard to let go of what you had, but you deserve peace and someone who values you without tearing you down.
It’s heartbreaking to see how much you’ve endured. You’re stronger than you realize, and you deserve a relationship that feels like respect and love not exhaustion.
You deserve so much better than this. The way he’s treating you is not okay and you’re not stupid for feeling drained or conflicted it’s tough to let go when you’ve invested so much.