for the past few years I kinda thought I was aro like never been in a relationship never really liked anyone.
Had like two crushes before but they felt forced like trying to make a spark a whole flame it never really happened.
So I was just like okay it's not gonna happen for me and I accepted it even tho I'm a total hopeless romantic I thought I'd only see it in books and stuff.
But like nine months ago I met this girl at uni and at first I didn't even notice her or think she was cute or anything. But we got super close super fast and after a few months I realized I had a crush. Like all the stuff I didn't notice before suddenly was all I could think about especially her arms tbh.
Anyway it didn't work out she knew how I felt but never said no or made a move. Then I saw her with this other girl she used to be into and I just freaked. She saw me and was like we need space.
It's been like three months since then and I'm pretty sure I was in love with her. Never felt feelings this strong or this kinda heartbreak before.
Now I get love songs which used to be so cringe to me or just background noise.
I'm kinda scared tho like what if she was the only one who could make me feel this way? It's only happened once what are the chances it'll happen again?
Also like I mostly stay home I'm pretty introverted autistic and not exactly hot so yeah probably other stuff playing into it you know?
Last updated on:2025-04-19T00:08:34+05:30
Comments (9)
Why Choose something that's so difficult in life.If the whole fear is around a topic where you want to find a partner for yourself
That means some part in you feels that you dont deserve a relationship.Get rid of that part and you will easily realise that it's not lack of that person , rather a trap of your own mind that keeps you stuck that's seems important but isn't so
The way you describe your crush and heartbreak feels so raw and honest. These feelings are part of growing and learning, even if it’s hard right now. You’ll feel love again.
You cared deeply and that’s an amazing thing even if it’s painful now. It’s hard to imagine feeling this way again but don’t lose hope love often surprises us.
Love songs making sense after heartbreak hit me so hard those first feelings are so intense but they also teach us about what we truly want and deserve.
Sometimes love happens unexpectedly and it’s scary to think it might not come again. But your openness to it shows you’re capable of loving deeply that’s something special.
First crushes and heartbreaks leave such a lasting mark. It’s scary to think about whether you’ll feel this way again but love has a way of surprising us when we least expect it.
The way you’ve described your feelings shows how deeply you cared and that’s beautiful even if it hurts now. Don’t give up on the idea of love..it’s out there waiting for you.
Heartbreak makes everything feel so heavy especially when it’s your first time experiencing emotions this strong. Take it slow and focus on healingit gets easier with time.
It’s tough when feelings like this hit you for the first time...it can be confusing and overwhelming. But love is surprising and it has a way of finding us again when we least expect it.