Bruh just found out my crush likes my close friend and he likes her back. He knew I liked her and asked her out and she curved me saying she wasn't looking for that. Now they're like super close going on dates getting coffee studying together.
I'm so heartbroken feel like actual trash haven't felt this bad in ages. Feeling mad insecure even tho he's my friend kinda jealous ngl. He's better looking dances better smarter thinner more buff even talks better than me feeling so bad about myself. He's like super smart and getting noticed by Ivy League colleges and stuff.
We're building this tech thing together with some other friends so we work close. Seeing him get everything I wanted is making it hard to just exist. Gotta see him smiling at his phone texting her sharing memes with her the same girl I liked. She laughs at all his jokes it's a lot to take in.
In school my ex cheated on me with someone I knew too had to see them around for a bit. Now it's seeing my friend and my crush all the time and it's not even their fault tbh. Took me four years to build myself back up after that. Used to self-harm for ages only stopped like a year ago. With my ex I knew she was wrong but this time they didn't do anything wrong. Starting to envy my friend he's like that Harvard ML genius. Always rooted for him but seeing him with her just shows me I'm nobody and I lost her again. Lost another crush. Hate how this is going. Last time took forever to move on wanna just cry. Don't know how I'm gonna see him every day and work with him for hours. Even small stuff like her texts popping up on his phone. Can't deal with it thought they were just talking but they're so close it's a lot to process. Help me get right don't wanna go back to self-harm and feeling worthless. Don't wanna be jealous and insecure. How do I stop feeling so insecure and see that I have worth too?
Last updated on:2025-04-19T04:30:49+05:30
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Sometimes what's yours comes later, let the emotions come out, slowly detach from your friend if it triggers you into doing bad things, don't expose yourself to pain, and then try to reflect everyday on daily accomplishment, it's okay to feel bad and cry, it's always okay to be jealous, but it's not okay to beat yourself up
In our life anytime something so emotionally stressful comes we all want to change it.and come at ease and get back to our normal self but what if getting back to normal self isnt possible.Then acceptance is the only way.How can you exist with those uncomfortable situations happening in front of you all the time and still respond not out of anxiety but out of Love and Compassion and understanding.The first step to that is Observe those feelings not the story your mind creates but let them be observed and let the restlessness occur.Trust you heart that it knows how to respond and not the Mind
do things that make you feel good. do all the things necessary to be who you want to be . you are worth it you deserve better than what you settle for . love yourself. value yourself bro